Just read this thread with some interest and wanted to share a few thoughts....
1) I'm a believer in the Man upstairs but still very immature in my faith.
2) I'm surprise this thread has lasted this long. I thought religion and politics were a no no on forums.
3) The fact that you are are asking questions is somewhat exciting. If you didn't believe in GOD at all, you wouldn't care to ask questions or probe. Keep asking questions b/c that is how we are created. To seek the truth, and the truth shall free you. God likes it that you ask questions. Ask all the questions you want. If in the end, you are not satisfied, you can freely reject God. He loves you so much, he's willing to let you have a choice to believe in Him or not.
4) If there is a God, he certainly isn't here to serve everyone by giving them everything they want and erasing all the hurt and all the pain. Believing that God should do that, or that there should never be any pain is incredibly rediculous and shallow. Aside from faith and God, how the hell would you learn anything or grow if there was no stress or pressure in life.
Here is an interesting story about a girl who can not feel pain (yes made by God that way. Only he knows his purpose for her...). She can't feel pain so she in a way doesn't know how not to hurt herself.
http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/OnCall/story?id=1386322 or google "a life without pain" to read about her story.
There is a reason for pain in life. Pain keeps us alive and makes us stronger. It is a necessary part of life and survival. Spiritually, it makes us grow, mature, draw near to Him, depend on Him, have faith, etc. God wants us to desire him, but won't force us. Forcing us to love him is not love at all. He doesn't wish for bad things to happen or create bad things, but rather allows them to exist so we might benefit from it.
Do I know all the answers - ummm No. Can I explain God away to your satisfaction? Probably not. Are there things about the Bible, religion, God that makes no sense to me at all? Hell yes! Do I still believe? Yes. Am I perfect....not even close, but that's what God is for. To make up for my mistakes.
I once read from another member that faith in God makes him a better man. He didn't understand why and how, but without God, he didn't like the person he was. I remembered this tid bit and have to agree. I'm the same way.
Peace Pec.
Chau